We all have those days and times when we think that life sucks. However, when you find yourself in that frame of mind it’s make it much easier to swallow when you can take a deep breath, exhale and realize no matter how bad and how hopeless you may feel at that particular moment in time there are a shitload of people who would gladly exchange places with you if given the chance. Believe me I know how much life can suck and how it feels to find yourself in utter despair but each day is an opportunity to turn things around. Don’t believe me? Try this life on for size.
Your grandfather dies from cancer. Your grandmother kicks the bucket on Christmas day later that same year. Your uncle dies of cancer not even a year later. Your other uncle also dies of cancer not even a year from the time your other uncle died from the same disease. Yeah that sucks but then your other uncle dies from a brain tumor. Your mother dies from cancer before before you make your 23rd birthday. Your brother is murdered not even a year later. Thankfully you married a woman who is everything you ever wanted. She’s smart, pretty and comes from a great family. After a few years of marriage you decide to try for a child and after months and months of trying the child is coming. Unfortunately the child is supposedly underweight and there is a good chance that the child will be born with down syndrome. Your father after having lived through all of this shit luckily makes retirement. As he begins to enjoy the work free lifestyle he suffers a stroke and is confined to a wheelchair for the rest of his life and lives on as a prisoner in his own body. Prior to the stroke your father married your mothers best friend, not for love but to help her out. She’s about to divorce him but when he suffers the stroke she gets $$$ in her eyes and fights you tooth and nail when you attempt to protect your fathers assets, prenuptial agreement be damned. You own a business and are less than a month away from being 100% debt free and 100% liquid but the industry in which you make your livelihood crashes leaving you with no other choice but to declare bankruptcy. Instead of going on your planned trip with your business partner to the Bahamas where you would sip fruity drinks and have a great time pissing away your hard earned money you instead find yourself trying to make a dollar from 15 fucking cents.
Yup, the above is the life that I have lived with a bunch of more fucked up moments than I care to disclose at this moment. What I’m getting at is that it would have been easy for me to throw my hands in the air and say “Fuck it, I’m done!” There were times when I felt as if I were cursed and no matter what I did to try to change my situation the cards were stacked against me. I would get knocked down, brush myself off and get knocked down again and again. I’m not a religious person but it felt as I was living in purgatory. It felt as if there was no way out!
I don’t remember exactly when it happened but it happened. It was a moment of clarity that allowed me to sleep peacefully for the first time in a long time and when I awoke from my sleep I felt as if I could conquer the world. It’s called STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF! I realized that no matter how bad I felt my life was up until that point that there were a shitload of people that would gladly exchange places with me.
Death is a part of life and a certainty.
My mother died. – There are thousands of people who wish they would have been able to meet their mothers! I was privileged to not only have her in my life but to simply have her. I had her for 22 years which is more than many people can say.
My brother was murdered. – He is gone but not forgotten. I miss him everyday of my life. He protected me, taught me things that I will never forget and help mold me into the person that I am. His memory lives on through my child who carries my brothers name as his middle name. Whenever I play catch with my kid I remember who it was who taught me to catch and throw.
My business went bankrupt. – Shit happens. At least I had the experience of running my own business. Fuck, I had the balls to go out on my own which many people would never dare to do. There was nothing I could have done differently. It was a simple matter of circumstance. Business is about timing and the timing just happened to be off. I could drive myself crazy thinking about what could have been or simply accept it for what it was and is. I decided to choose the later.
Life sucks?! Think again. I felt life was hopeless but today I am thankful for the trials and tribulations I lived through and find myself in peace. I am thankful and happy with where my life is today. I have a beautiful wife who is also my best friend. I look forward to growing old with her and will hopefully have her by my side when it is time for me to leave this earth. I have an awesome kid and I look forward to raising him so that he can be everything that I’m not and provide for him so that his life will be easier than that of my own. I have a career and I’m steadily climbing to a six figure salary. I may never be rich but I will be able to live comfortably. I will be able to help those who I love financially in the future and look forward to doing so.
You may be way a was not too long ago but stay positive and keep pushing forward. Things will get better….I’m living proof.