It’s no secret that I started this blog in order to create an outlet in which to vent. I find myself posting less and less these days and as a result my traffic has decreased steadily to a level I haven’t seen since I started this blog, going on 6 years now.
I was thinking about posting on this blog a few days ago when I realized something that startled me a bit. I had nothing to post about! It used to be super easy for me to go 0-100 on just about anything but it doesn’t seem to be the case anymore. I asked myself a few questions. What am I pissed off about or what has really pissed me off lately. The answer was simply “I’m not as pissed off lately.”
I’m not pissed off lately? Seriously? Amazingly enough I can’t seem to think about much of anything that is pissing me off. But why? I think a part of it is that I’m a bit older and wiser but when I get to the root of why I’m not as pissed off lately and analyze things a bit I think that I’m just in a good place. Why?
When I started this blog I was working job(s) that I hated and wasn’t making enough money. It was really easy for me to become stressed, as anyone would be, when you seem to be working for no other reason than to pay bills. It used to be money comes in and money goes right out. I used to rack my brain with ways to become financially stable. Fast forward and I still work a job that I absolutely hate but I’ve been getting paid really really well. I came to the realization that there are few people in the world that are fortunate enough to do what they love and earn a really good living. If I have to work a job that I hate at least I’m getting paid well for it which is more than many people can say.
I used to get really pissed off at ignorance and stupidity in general and although it does get to me some times I find it getting to me less and less these days. I think I came to the realization that some of us are just more intelligent than others and although it appears that the stupid are winning I’m thankful I’m not one of them. Hey most people are ignorant, dumb animals but what can you really do about it?
Nothing would irritate me more than some get rich quick internet mlm business being marketed as the next BIG thing when I knew that it was absolute garbage and I would go out of my way to create posts on this blog to blow the whistle. What I found more often than not was going back and forth with believers of whatever the heck I ripped apart. What’s the point? Like I said most people are stupid and will continue to get ripped off by online money making schemes and BS mlm “opportunities.” If a person does get ripped off than good. If a person is smart enough to market what an intelligent person would deem absolute garbage to the masses of stupid people than good for that person.
I would dwell on the past and drive myself crazy with “OHHHH what could have been!” I realize now that I was doing nothing but making myself miserable. Absent of a time machine there was nothing I could do to change the past and since I have no way to travel back and time in order to change things, what was I doing to myself? I’ll admit that it wasn’t easy but I decided to let the past stay in the past and concentrate on the here and now with an eye on the future. The things in my past that I used to dwell on that would make me angry now sometimes bring a smile to my face. Many, many things had nothing more than being young and naive. Being who I am today there would be no way that I would allow myself to do those things but I guess that’s what makes me wiser. Those things were learning experiences, albeit EXPENSIVE learning experiences but those learning experiences are what makes us who we are.
I used to absolutely hate my car and even created a post about how new cars were too expensive. Thinking back the post wasn’t really about how new cars were too expensive but more so that I couldn’t afford to buy a new car let alone the car I REALLY REALLY wanted. Things have changed. Although it was a but much on my finances I did something that was needed. I went out and purchased not just a new car but the new car that I REALLY REALLY wanted. Sure I still hate my job and there are days when I think that I would rather do anything else but the feeling goes away as I start my engine, put the radio on ear shattering levels and put the pedal to the metal and take off like a bat out of hell. My job sucks but at least it put me into a financial position to get my greatest toy ever. I love my car and little by little I’m putting a few bucks aside to make little upgrades here and there. Tinted windows? Check! Wind deflectors? Check! Awesome set of racing rims? CHECK. Exhaust system? Not yet but I’ll have that as a birthday present to myself next year. What I find amazing is that something as simple as the vehicle I drive could have such an impact on my happiness. It’s not practical as in terrible on gas and a high insurance premium, even though I haven’t had a car accident in over 10 years and never ever received a moving violation, but just like Ricky Bobby this guy likes to GO FAST!
I have an awesome wife! Stating that most marriages end in divorce is like saying the sky is blue. I’m fortunate that I was able to find someone that not only makes me happy but who is also by best friend. She’s truly is my better half. For everything that I’m not she is. She’s always supported me, mentally as well as financially (most of the time and not so much these days) , since the start of our relationship. There is nothing more that I enjoy than simply sitting on the couch on talking about how our respective day went. She’s caring, intelligent, sexy and can be the silliest person I know at times. She lives in her own little bubble and is 100% comfortable with that. She’s of course is not perfect, as none of us are, but she’s perfect for me and I’m oh so thankful. How many people can say they’ve been with their better half for half of their life and still going strong?
I have an awesome kid! My kid is my most favorite thing in the world. Sure there are times when I wanted to absolutely kill him but what parent doesn’t get that feeling? He makes me proud each and every day. He’s like an old man in a little kids body. He’s a bit shy and lacks a bit of confidence but he’s still a kid and that’s what growing up is all about. He is so much smarter than I was and I hope that he embraces education and becomes everything that I’m not. I hope that he makes the right choices in life and that he one day meets the love of his life, had a successful marriage and children of his own. I don’t know if what I hope will become a reality but I will do and continue to do whatever I can to keep him on the right path. So far so good and I’m just really thankful and happy that not only is he super smart but that he’s happy and healthy. There are people who want children more than anything but can’t have children for a variety of reasons. Thankfully I’m not one of them.
I have awesome friends. Sure I don’t see them as much as I like. It’s way different being a teenager and in your early twenties starting out life than it is when you and they become married, have children and have little to no free time. I do know that if I ever truly needed any of them they would be there in a heartbeat as I would be there for them. Times do change. No longer is going out and partying, playing drinking games or calling in sick just to hang out later than you should. Amazing how getting together at a BBQ and talking about kids, insurance, investments and just plain old BS replaces what once was but it’s still as enjoyable. Besides drinking a little too much does still happen from time to time.
I attribute all of the above as to why I’m not ass pissed of lately. I think I’m just in a really good place right now and I hope that for as much things will change throughout the years to come things will stay the same. It wasn’t always that way but this is my new reality. Stupidity is still contagious and always will be but I just don’t care about it as much as I once did.
I hope that if you came across this post and see similarities between who you are now and who I was at a time in my life it at least gives you hope that things will change and even more so provides you with a few questions and a moment of self reflection to take a look at things and how you have the power to at least change some of it.